Life has a cruel way of letting you know what’s right and what’s wrong. This past week I have been battling the worst heartache that I have ever experienced. It’s a heartache that I hope no one ever has to go through. It’s difficult when you have this special person in your life and you think that they are the future, and then one day something happens and it’s never the same again.
So, you pick yourself up off of the floor and face the day. You wake up one morning and realize ,you made it through the night. I survived a night without him. And you go about your day, and at random moments it hits you, and you have to fill your time with things and people to keep your mind off of the profound absence that is blaringly obvious. I watched a video on relationships last night that had popped up on my Facebook timeline, and it comforted me and made me realize that I DID make the right decision. While that doesn’t make it hurt any less, I learned several lessons, and know that I am coming out of this a stronger person. I am genuinely smiling again, and I love that feeling!
This weekend, I filled my time with reading at the car dealership while I waited for my car to get inspected. I brought a post-workout snack to eat while I waited for my car.
I treated myself to an at-home shellac manicure while watching Chicago Fire. Sparkly pink nails because even if I don’t feel like a princess, these nails make me smile when I look at them.
Spending the evenings with my Mom and going to the SNHU college men’s basketball game with my Daddio.
Growing up, my Catholic school teacher was on the team, and my Dad would take my brother and I to all of the home games. After the games, Jeff would wave us over and we would say hi to him after the game. Relieving these memories with my Dad really meant a lot to the both of us.
Girl time with my best friend Linds. When you have people in your life who know the same pain that you’re in and know you the best, well, they are the best remedy. Especially when it involves shopping.
I know it’s all about one step forward each and every day.
How do you deal with heartache?